Saturday, February 13, 2010

Excitement. Love. Happiness.

Last night, I sat down to blog.

I wanted to share pictures I took yesterday of my baby sister's belly. I wanted to scream my excitement for a loved one who learned yesterday that she is expecting after several failed intrauterine insemination and in vetro fertilization procedures. I wanted to show the love I felt for my children ... and the happiness I felt knowing that two very important people in my life will soon have that love in their hearts.

And in the midst of me opening up my blog, I watched this video. And I felt sad. I felt defeated. I felt angry. I felt frustrated.

And I no longer cared to share my excitement, love and happiness. Because right then ... I needed to advocate.

But for now ... I would much rather be back in the place I was before I watched that video.


My baby sister is set to give birth to her first child in three days. I use the term baby sister loosely, as she really is only 10 months and 10 days younger than me.


She is having a girl. Olivia Grace.


Shortly after my sister and I gathered to showcase the life growing inside of her, I learned that a loved one had just received news that she is expecting. This comes after a very long journey of infertility, miscarriage and numerous failed procedures. If you have a prayer to spare, please pray that this new life remains safe and healthy in its mother's womb.

Last night, as my husband prepared to take our children upstairs to put them to bed, I was reminded of my intense love for these little people. As I am every night.

Payton is umm, shall I say ... a very strong willed person. I am not sure where she gets that from? As she is being called up the stairs to head to bed, she puckers up and kisses everyone in the house. One round, two rounds, three rounds, four rounds of kisses. She would go all night if we let her.

But seriously ... it isn't easy to tell her to stop. Because watching her shake her little booty across the floor with lips puckered ... well it is the cutest thing.


As she did this last night, it made me so happy to know that this love would soon be felt by two very important people in my life.

And for me ... that is what life is all about.


  1. awwwww......! Bethany- Thanks so much for such kind words! I def. had tears! So sweet! The happiness I feel right now is amazing and even though we've had positive tests before it's still so nice to have good news once again and high numbers! Tammy

  2. I have an Olivia Grace, too. She is a beautiful soul...

  3. Aw, what a sweet girl, love you Payton!

  4. Congrats to both of them. I hope your sisters delivery is as pain free as possible!

  5. ♥Olivia♥ :)

    Congrats to all! Can't wait to see pics of your new baby niece!

    It would be so hard to put Ethan to bed if he puckered the way Payton does! Precious!

  6. Just found your blog and love it! YOu have a beautiful family, following along and look forward to reading more!

  7. You have such a beautiful family. Congrats to you sister!!

  8. I have a million things to say here but will try to sum it up, as a survivor of 10 misscarriages to have my 3 beautiful little ones, i truly know the joy of children after such a struggle.Congrats to your ssister and friend!And ive seen that video def vomit worthy!