Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Stick stick stick!

Sometimes ... when you are on 24-hour bed rest ... feeling anxious ... you might think that reading some inspirational quotes might help your mood. And sometimes ... instead of landing on a quote that spews wine and roses ... you find just what you need to make you laugh.

Millions of couples suffer from infertility, so why the *bleepity bleep* is everyone pregnant but me?

Ah, much better.

No really ... other people being pregnant does not bother me. At one time, it did. But right now ... I am super excited for all the people in my life that are pregnant ... my sister, my sister-in-law, two of my cousins, one of my best friends, a good neighbor friend, a long time friend.

Seriously, can I get some of that water ya'll are drinking?

Oh right ... on to today.

This morning my stomach was in knots. I took a whole lot of deep breaths to try to release some of my anxiety, but I am not sure how much it worked. I was so nervous that neither blast would survive the thaw. That would put us back at square one with no feet to walk on.

On our way to the doctor, my nurse called me with some information I had requested ...

Your blasts were frozen on day 6 and both were Grade 1 ... which is the best you can get. I really don't think you will have any problems with them surviving the thaw ... these are great blasts.

*tears*

I told Kyle that the two blasts we had transferred back in 2005 were rated equal or above to these two frozen blasts and one of them was rated below the blasts that were frozen. The problem was that the two that ended up being frozen were developing a little more slowly and they were not ready for my day 5 transfer.

Did I lose ya yet?

Anyway, Kyle said, "Well at least we know they are fighters! They are Payton's fraternal triplets and we know she is a bull headed little thing ... so these guys must be too."

Love him.

Unfortunately ... when we got to the doctor, we were told that only one of our blasts survived the thaw. I tried to hold it together, all the while knowing how our odds had just been slashed in half.

The surviving blast was rated at 80% ... and 80% and above is what they hope for. The second blast was only rated at 40-50% ... they discouraged us from transferring that blast, in light of the poor quality.

We agreed.

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So we have one little blast ... stick stick stick!!

And seriously ... thank you so, so much to everyone for all of your thoughts and prayers. I have been moved to tears more than once ... and I swear I do not regret my decision to open up about this.

Infertility sucks!!

28 comments:

  1. Prayers for you are continuing at full speed!

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  2. Stick and bloom little blast!!!

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  3. continuing to pray for you as you walk this journey.....may God give you the desires of your heart....a precious baby! huge hugs!

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  4. Sending stickie prayers and good vibes your way!May hope,faith and the knowledge that it only takes one,carry you through the next several weeks!

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  5. Praying for you and your family. I have known so many who struggle with infertility and it might be one of the hardest things anyone can go through! Anxiously waiting with you...

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  6. Continuing to pray for you and Kyle ...remain positive and rest and know that we are all behind you ....

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  7. I have a feeling that it is gonna stick. Something about this one blast...just seems so right. Eat some honey--lol.

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  8. Here's to a very strong sticky bean!!!! Now lay down, rest and think lots of positive thoughts!!!!

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  9. My quote for you today:
    "Hope sees the invisible, feels the intangible and achieves the impossible."
    ~ Unknown

    Still praying!!!

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  10. Okay then....part one down, you have a blast that has survived the thaw. Now on to praying for part two....for it to stick. Come on baby blast, you can do it!!! Bethany, I have really been thinking of you and praying for you these past few days. I hope you get some more good news soon!!

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  11. Praying praying praying!!! I love what your husband said : ) Take it easy.....

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  12. Love your quote...we will keep praying for you!!!

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  13. Sending lots of ooey, gooey, sticky love you're way.

    Umm...that sounded gross. I hope you get my point! :)

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  14. One is all you need!!!!!! Praying for a Payton twin to grace your family.

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  15. Bethany-Just remember one is all it takes and sending lots of stickie prayers for you and Kyle.

    Love
    Nicole
    mommy to Ethan and Aidan

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  16. Hope it's not inappropriate to tell you that I hope you get knocked up ;0) Praying prayers for your little fighter.

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  17. Bethany, I SO understand where you are right now and how much your heart desires this. I am praying, pleading, singing the words to God to help this little one stick in there and for you to add to your family! Take it easy, do what the doctor says, and...I hear that fresh pineapple helps with implantation *wink, wink*

    Peggy
    Mommy to Cason :)

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  18. I've never prayed for something sticky before. There is a first for everything. Lots of prayers coming your way!

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  19. Great news so far!! Now stick! stick! stick! Prayers heading your way. Can't wait to hear more good news! :)

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  20. Oh my gosh, Bethany! Where have I been?!? You definitely have my prayers!! Stick stick stick!!!1

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  21. Praying for this to stick, stick, stick, and grow, grow, grow.

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  22. o, you beautiful blast...stick! BE the little blast that could...you can do it!

    big breaths & big love, sweets.

    ps: honest and from my heart, that photo is just...well, it's art. and it's glorious and so divine.

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  23. Praying! Praying! Praying!! I love you!!!

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  24. We're praying for you here too!! Grow cells grow!!

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  25. Still sending love to you - and prayers to the big man upstairs. Stick, little munchkin - stick.

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