Thursday, February 2, 2012

... all the love in the world.

We headed upstairs as we prepared for bedtime last night. Mason and Payton were a little behind... they wanted to "get water" to take to bed with them. A common ritual in our house. The two of them then ran up the stairs like a herd of elephants, exclaiming that they had made lemonade.

Payton held up her cup and yelled, "Mom! 'Nade!"


Encouraging her for a job well done -- and wondering how in the hell she made lemonade, I said, "You made lemonade? Whoa, good job!"

Fast forward... the kids went to bed and Kyle and I retreated downstairs. I went to the kitchen to grab the Mt. Dew I had opened just before we went upstairs. I understand I could have a better choice of drinks... it is my guilty pleasure. You drink wine, I drink Mt. Dew. You drink beer, I drink Mt. Dew. You smoke, I drink Mt. Dew. Ha.


Uh huh. Lemonade alright! 

Kyle and I sat there, laughed and tried to figure just exactly how that conversation went down.

Mason: Here Payton, want some of Mom's Mt. Dew?
Payton: Yeah!
Mason: Okay, tell Mom it is lemonade. Okay?
Payton: Yeah... 'nade!

Little shits stinkers. Little love muffins.


It is moments like these that I sit back and say, "See self... she totally gets it. She can lie with the rest of 'em. She can deceive with the rest of 'em. She might have Down syndrome... but that doesn't stop her from nothing!"

And she sure is damn cute while she's at it.


I recently came across this cross that we were given when we adopted Nika. In all honesty... I don't even remember receiving it. But it was such a blessing to find it.

It says her Russian name + baptism + February 2, 2007.

It is the cross she was given... I presume... at her baptism.


Today is the five year anniversary of the day Nika was baptized. At the time... she was an orphan living in a Russian baby home.

There is so much we don't know about those first two years of her life... so much we wish we knew. And so much we don't know about her baptism... I guess I feel blessed to know that she even was baptized... Russian Orthodox, I assume? Did she have sponsors? I don't know... wish I knew.


I really have this yearning tonight to find Nika's birth parents. It isn't often that I even think of them... but tonight, I am. I really just want to see them. And if ever given the opportunity... I would love to show them that this little girl that they had no hope for... she is doing amazing things. And she is so deserving of all the love in the world.



  1. This post made me laught, grin from ear-to-ear, and cry.....sad tears and very happy tears.

    Thank you.

    and Happy Baptism Day sweet truly are a blessing.

  2. Perhaps her parents were hoping for you? Best.Post.Ever.

  3. love the comment above because you are the best thing ever that Nika could hope for!

  4. Love. Love. Love. And I know her parents would love to see that she is thriving and so loved.

  5. What a wonderful little girl you got there !

  6. SO, I was waiting to hear that they were up all night! Mountain Dew is pretty potent, you know! Ha, what cuties, stinkers or not. And what beautiful pictures!

  7. Beautiful...not the lemonade....

  8. This was a wonderful post, Bethany! I think it may be on my list of favorites. I loved the "lemonade" story. I was completely laughing and thinking -- how sneaky and brilliant! You're so right, down syndrome or not, nothing will stop her! :)

    And the part about Nika -- well, that's when I teared up. I love reading your words about your love for her. It's so special. I can relate in so many ways, in missing out on the first few years, and wondering what life was like for my girl. I too know what it feels like to think of a birth parent and think -- how do you not see what you're missing out on?! How do you not see how beautiful and wonderful she is?! How would you want to miss this?

    But I'm also a big believer in fate. Coincidence & luck aren't words in my vocabulary. I think she was always meant to be yours. I think, you two were her Mom and Dad all along and the people MEANT to see how special she is. She's the most perfect GIFT.


    1. Ok, I love you. I have chills reading your comment. <3

  9. I love the last picture you posted! You take such great pictures!

  10. Oh you freak. I didn't even know you had this blog. How did I not know? AND WHAT'S EVEN WORSE...How did I not know you love Mountain Dew as much as me? I can tell you all the places to get good fountain Mountain Dew in Arlington and Falls Church. Which is sad, because there's really only one. But it's right by my house!

    So you should come over. I also have several hundred in my fridge. At all times.

  11. great "nade" story those kids of yours are so funny.

    Isn't it so sad to think that her parents were told to give her up b/c she would not do anything or be a burden....oh if they only knew (they would be so happy to see her) I wonder how often they think of her

  12. LOVE THIS POST! So sweet and funny. My Mylie is a stinker and steals ice cream from the freezer before I wake up in the morning. Heaven help us!